Bubbles

I almost forgot!!! My SON….  (SMILE) has kept his night-time chonies dry for 6 nights in a row!!! AND since he is 6yrs old! This means that he gets to go to Toy Town, hahaha, to get a special treat!!  haha This was yesterday by the way… so, we go to this toy store where he has already decided ahead of time what he wants to get of course.. I did not even know when he had ever BEEN in that store!!  Anyway, we go in.. he goes straight over to one of those plastic bins and picks out this squishy, coral looking dragon! 5 bucks!!! ummmm OK!! not a problem for me… hahaha  i sooooo totally got off easy.. (smile)  yeah!!  no new nintendo game, no humungous racetrack, or pirate lego thing??  nope! $5 squishy dragon.. That’s my boy!!  hahahhaha Now, let’s see if they are dry when he wakes up today??  haha 

Just going to church yesterday was really good for me… God and i have a lot to talk about and i truly DO trust that He is going to take care of things.. and i really am grateful for everything that i do have. Trust me, that i know how lucky i am to have the people around me and my SON… where i live, my house, all my limbs (because health in my case is relative) … i AM blessed in soooo many ways.. i know this… and i trust in this.  It is like Tim however, it is the permanence of life that is eating away at me… Being both mother and father, man and woman, for every situation … for child, home, friend, financial and otherwise .. it is not meant to be that way!! Yes… i deleted….. I still can’t believe that i let “shizer” stay there… I have been talking with Mia.. she is helping me thru this season of ???? well, whatever it is.. We worked out together this morning and God has answered a prayer for me already before 7am.. so, with joyful tears of ‘Thank You for showing me that You are listening’ … i send you all my love..

Yes, ’shizer’ is a Miki word.. My time in Amsterdam was amazing!! I was on a complete HIGH!! Yes, satan saw this.. and now is dancing all over me and then some!!!! I don’t know what to say about DJ? I don’t think that he is the one for me. I had this epiphany at church last sunday… and i haven’t been able to speak to HIM about that yet because the rest of this week has been spent in bed or on the couch nursing my ever popular head!! I have had crazy freak-outs because.. i do not know why my husband can not just come HOME for goodness sakes!! I have to have learned whatever stupid lesson that was supposed to have been learned, right??!! Somebody, for the love of God… just say yes!! … So, could Tim.. JUST walk thru the door.. PLEASE!!  … and YES… tears have been flowing all friggin week ok! … and THEN, that stupid stupid patio at my house.. you know the one.. that is 1000 degrees in the summer and negative 100 degrees in the winter and floods every time it rains?? yep, that one!! well, true to form.. it is raining and flooding out the tennants.. and when it rains.. it molds.. oh yeah, it does.. therefore, the mold EATS away at the RETARED aluminum NON-insulated room and sooner or later you can see straight into the back yard that the brain-bull that designed the cement slab to drain straight down into the dumb thing!! SOOOO.. now.. i get to see how much it is going to cost to either tear the thing down all together and just put grass there.. which means adding a whole new back half of my house, by the way!! and then fixing the back yard.. OR.. tearing it out creating a new foundation (sooo cheap) re-building AND re- leveling the backyard.. hmmmmmmm i wonder which one is cheaper???  hmmmm  let’s see.. where is Tim again?? oh yeah… and i work where?? oh yeah.. and i have already been crying all week anyway.. soo.. why should today matter..ohhh.. sooo funny.. so, i get this thing from the IRS.. about not paying my taxes or something… are you kidding me?????????? Do they even know ?…….  TEARS!!  big giant tears!!  i do not even know how to explain!!  does anyone have a whole that i can climb into??  … i can’t even put my funny smiley face.. cause it’s not that funny today..Who wants to go dancing?? i need to dance!!!   haha  I need to shake something.. (smile) 

Just a date…………

jk… hahhahaha  You guys love me and you know it!! (smile)  Well, he got off of work late, so he just called and talked to me the whole way here instead.. soo cute.  Some of you know that i live in a 3 story condo.. well, it has a balcony that looks out on to the street.. Anyway, as i am giving him directions on how to get here and talking him thru it.. he comes around the corner and there i am.. his Juliette (smile)  I KNOW!!  i am cute.. lol   I ran down the stairs and NOOOO  i did not wait for him to open the door.. i jumped into his arms and we hugged for about 5 minutes.. “you ARE real”  i do not remember who said that one.. But HE said that i was MUCH cuter in person than in my pictures (SMILE) LOL  I gave him a quick tour of the house and we were off to dinner, just up the street.. he was really tired from driving.

We order our food, stare at each other, hold each others hands, talk a LOT and then DAN comes in… (smile)  “hi guys”  totally not intimidating by the way.. LOL  So, he joins us for a bit.. asks DJ some qeustions, DJ asks about me?? and then he ever so gracefully takes off about 45 minutes later LOL  I LOVE Dan!!  After dinner we just hung out and talked for awhile and then he had to drive back because he still has to work today!!

I KNOW, you want to know if we made it thru the no kising rule… I’m N-O-T  T-E-l-l-i-n-g!!!   hahahahahahaha

You are gonna have to try and pry it out of La-donna!! and she does NOT crack easily..  hahahaha  hahaha

LOVE YA.. LOL

Ok.. so after talking to ‘the new guy’ for almost 2 n 1/2 months… We are going out tonight for the first time.. yikes!? and yeah! all at the same time.. hehehe Over Christmas, he was gone with his family and we did not talk for 2 weeks!! I KNOW!! haha Now, just because HE didn’t talk, we all know that that does not mean that ‘I’ did not still email him.. hehe I totally tried not too, but it was completely impossible! My mind does not rest like that. PLUS, he thought that it was cute..

Anyway, since we are both back.. we have talked every night for at least 2 hours and NOT seeing each other is just too much to ask any more!! SOOO, after work tonight he is coming up here and taking me out to dinner (smile) and i guess we will see if we can stick to that ‘no kissing on the first date’ rule. .. and at the same time, i hope that i don’t just tear up at the sight of him because i finally get to see this man that has completely captured my heart!!

Dan n Mia are absolutely hillarious with this as well… she has read every one of his emails and of course i tell her EVERYTHING that we say to each other.. Dan is like big daddy with a shot gun that sooo totally needs no gun!! all rapped up in this teddy bear packaging.. … I was over there the other night and Dan just looked at me and said “if this guy sees you tonight? It is all over for him.. because you are just glowing..” Mia said that he was sooo excited to see that in me that it almost made HIM glow!! hehe .. and even funnier was telling DJ, (my man) about that statement.. “soo, is he trying to pick up on you??” hahahahahahahaha I was like, do you hear nothing??? That is my best friends HUSBAND!! and one of MY husbands closest and dearest friends.. ummmm NO, he is NOT picking up. hahaha

He is still not grasping that i am not a walking ‘pick up’ machine.. and uuuhhhh if that were the case?? why would i have to be on that stupid website in the first place!?? sooo funny!

ok… soooo… i live too far away.. but now would be a good time for all my girls to be coming over and having tea, giggling, helping with Gavin, hiding upstairs to see what he looks like.. you know? all the good stuff!! Why did i move?? ooohhh yeah.. i remember.. all the other crappy stuff.. hahaha

ok, so part 2 of this will TOTALLY go play by play of how amazing he looked and how romantic he was.. all the mushy stuff.. I PROMISE!!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

The things that i do on facebook.. i seriously just took the ’sexy’ quiz!! This is me: Seductive Sexy You’ve got all the right moves without going over the top. Intimacy is a fun and enjoyable experience for you, so you don’t need to force it, and you don’t worry about expressing yourself too openly. You are confident about yourself and your sexuality and there is nothing sexier than a girl who is comfortable with who she is.

I am sooooo glad that someone told me that!! Wow, what would i have done without that information in life!! LOL

and yet.. now i must blog about it.. what does that say?? It says my time change SUCKS!!!! and i can NOT SLEEP!!! hahahahahahahaha

So i had written this whole thing about staying at Phil and Laina’s.. and of course i deleted it!! I am having a hard time concentrating, writing emails, reading, going on here… really it could be anything. I don’t know what it is really and i do not think that it matters all that much. What Phil and Laina’s boils down to is trusting in God.. I have a lot of issues in that area. I thought that i was on the right track, i think that i still might be… but i can feel myself pulling backwards.. like ‘i’ must be right.. ‘i’ must be in charge here. God’s timing is soooooo soooooo soooooo (did i say sooooo?) slow! So, MY timing MUST be correct.. i can totally feel that pull. I KNOW that it is false and yet i can feel its stength build.

And so, i gather my wits and pray… i get the strength that only can come from God.. and that saves me for the day/moment.. whatever it may be.. and then the ‘pull’ comes up again.. it is as if it knows?! Sooo frustrating!!!

So, i am coming to you now with a prayer of continued stength and power to listen to God’s will. To wait on His timing in ALL things. It will come… LIFE will come… just let it.. in His time..