had a ‘daddy day’ with Gavin today.. he opened up more than he has in a .. very.. long time.. I will not publish what was said between us in such a ‘public forum’ .. or to anyone else for that matter….. those conversations are for Gavin and i.. and need to remain so if he is going to ‘trust’ me when we come together in those moments… and rightly so.. I was never given that respect.. and i will be damned if my son is not given that, by me or anyone else around me..
Today was a good/bad/good (smile) day for the two of us.. he is such a good boy. I wish that his daddy were here to see him. …
My heart aches as he searches to fill the ‘hole’ in our family that his daddy will never be able to fill… he did not ‘choose’ to leave us.. i can not ‘call him’ and ask him to come home… ……. my heart just aches
